I Needed You (revised)
                                        by
                               samthepainofall

You ripped my heart from my chest and watched it bleed...
When you started to question if it was best for us to BE!
I thought the things we had...were so sweet,
But instead of giving back... they made you WEEP!

So i cut my wrist deeply, again and again
to try to make you weep for me ,and what was DEAD!
And then i heard myself cry out  in my HEAD...

Chorus<
"I needed you to love me...to show me how you felt

I needed you to care...but you said we couldn't be a pair,

And you left me hanging there...all by MYSELF!"
<END chorus>

You promised we would make it work...no matter the cost,
But then you changed your mind and left me to ROT!
Yet you gave me no choice...I couldn't have FOUGHT!

I tried to fix what i fucked up...but you blew me off, like i wasn't good ENOUGH!
I know you didn't think of how i felt, Now i want to hurt you and kill MYSELF!

<Chorus>

I dent care anymore, i just want to die...fling me in a coffin, and let me LIE!

Ill never get over...the misery you caused me...Just let me SUFFER!  Just let me BE!

Now just to let me be....
Just let me...be....
                                                   <END>

Are you a good or bad boy/girl?? Add one point for everything you have done. If you get more than 60- you are bad! Lower than that-- no worries your still a little angel!

1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs
total - 9

11) taken pain killers
12) taken someone elses prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die
total - 9

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) recieved a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar
total - 5

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent cd
total - 7

41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been too drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor.
50) had someone sneak into your room
total - 9

51) snuck into some else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone.
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush
total - 7

61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a restaraunt without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age
total - 8

71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) someone cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend with you
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harrassed
80) been verbally harrassed
total - 7

81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
84) watched tv for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test
total - 10

91) cheated on homework
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93) been pushed into a pool
94) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you.
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
total - 9

score - 80

Hey everybody   4 more days till ill be back in tx  yay!   i cant wait to see every one and to give the nurse and jon  nookies   i cant wait to see yall

sam

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hey all  i know i havent updated in a while so here we go  im living in iowa  and everything is going great   had prom tonight  it was fun     but beside that  not mauch happening   so leave me a comment  we all know everyone likes those

sam

He every one...i wrote this song at work yesterday and it just fell into my head  and i want yall to leave a comment and tell me whet you think,.........
love ya
sam

                                I Needed You
                                        by
                               samthepainofall

You tore my heart from my chest and watched it bleed
When you started to doubt...if it was best for us to BE!
I thought the thiks we had were unique, instead they made you FREAK!

So i cut myself deeply, again and again
to try to make you weep for me ,and what was DEAD!
And then i heard myslef ... inside of my HEAD!

Chorus<
I needed you to love me,... to show me how you felt

I needed you to care,... but you said we couldnt be a pair,

Then you left me hanging there......all by MYSELF!
<END chorus>

You promised we would make it work.....no matter the cost,
Then you changed your mind and left me here to ROT!
And you gave me no choice,,,,I couldnt have FOUGHT!

I tried to fix the things i fucked up.......but you blew me off, like i wasnt good ENOUGH!

I know you didnt think of how i felt, Now i want to craw into a whole and kill MYSELF!

<Chorus>

I dont care...anymore, i want to die;  Just put me in a coffin, and let me LIE!

Ill never get over the pain you caused me;Just let me SUFFER!  Just let me BE!

Now i need you just to let me be.........
Just let me......be.........
                                                   <END>